I wish for a lot

A wishlist of sorts

I am a simple man,
pulled in different directions,
by what I have preached.
I say that the path to freedom,
lies in staying in the present moment,
But oh how I wish
to have someone to share my life with.

I am but a child ,
desparate for attention and connection.
I am but a child,
unwilling to put my attention if the reward is not fair enough.
I wish I was a child,
able to know when to rest and play.
I wish I was a child,
able to see the miracle of life afresh.
I wish I was old,
to know if everything worked out in the end.
I wish I was dead,
I take that back,
I do not wish that,
not when there are people who want me to stay.